new year's resolution

2015 as a whole was a pretty good year. what really helped it start as a good year was actually following my new year's resolution and that overall kept my year guided well. though there were bumps in the road, i didn't let anything get me down too much.

a few weeks before 2016, i tried to think of a new year's resolution but i couldn't decide on just one. my main focus is hard to explain. essentially, i want to become the best "me" i can. sometimes, i don't try new things/try to accomplish things because i feel as if i'm unable to. i, for some reason, believe i would not be able to complete (x) task, so i avoid it. this year, i want to get out of my comfort zone and not only prove to others that i can be great, but mostly for myself. this is basically a huge step for me to get myself out of the habit of looking negatively about myself, and telling myself that i'll be capable of anything if i set my mind to it.

this goal is important to (as i said earlier) because i'm tired of letting myself put myself down for whatever reason. deep down i know i can do something, and now, i'm actually going to do it. the biggest obstacle i know i'll face during this is not the desire to get out of my comfort zone, but pushing myself into believing that i am good and that i am enough. this is something i need to teach myself, because i've struggled with it before in the past and still to this day. i don't know exactly how i will overcome these negative thoughts, but i will push through. i kept to my new year's resolution from last year, and i intend to do this same now and forever. i think this will be an amazing benefit to me because i'll have a lot of confidence that i didn't previously have.